“Sleep in peace, I am going to come in the morning…”-this was the last message that spy Nver, who was killed during the war in Artsakh, sent to his fiancé Zoyka. The latter has kept the message in her mobile phone. Every time she reads the message, she always remembers Nver, cries and is sometimes silent.

Zoyka is from Taghaser. Her hero has a closed corner in her heart…Her hero is different and, perhaps for her-irreplaceable. The 19-year-old student’s hero was a tall, strong and blonde boy who lived a block away from her. Nver used to look after the schoolyard, and it was during those years when he had an eye on Zoyka. He flirted with her for four years, and one day he decided to put a ring on her finger. Even 40 days after Nver’s death, Zoyka still wears the ring on her delicate finger. Now the ring looks big on her finger. After Nver’s death, her fingers have become thinner, and the days have become longer…

Forty days ago, Zoyka’s smile was a smile, and her life was good. Back then, she didn’t make herself smile because she would smile whenever Nver called her or sent her a text message. During the days in April, Nver didn’t have time to see his fiancé. He had promised to see her as soon as he came down from the military positions. Zoyka was mitigating her longing by talking to him on the phone, but now what can mitigate her longing?

“I would tell myself if he went and came back alive, I would withstand the longing, but now I am kidding myself…I can’t believe it. If I believe, I will make myself suffer. If I start believing, it will be bad for me,” the girl said, sincerely. Zoyka will soon graduate from the university. She and Nver had decided to get married after her graduation.

Zoyka’s friends take walks with her, talk to her and console her with the dull words-“Life goes on”. “For me, life has stopped. There is nothing…I know it will continue, but it won’t be like it was before. A piece of my heart has been torn. It no longer exists.”

The girl flips through the pages of the album of her and Nver’s photos and smiles every instant. One of the photos makes the girl sad again. It is a photo of her and Nver hugging each other. Nver is in camouflage, and she is in her school uniform. “He would say I was his first life and the homeland was his second,” the girl says and closes the album.

On April 4, spy, sniper and machine-gunner Nver Simonyan was killed, making his future wife wait for the promised meeting. The only gift from Nver is the ring on her finger and the four years that passed in an instant.

The girl of Taghaser is not mad at the world. She is simply upset with her luck.

Taguhi Melkonyan

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